The Caves of My Soul

Our air conditioning went out on one of the hottest days of summer! We were tired of sitting around the house, but didn't really want to go outside in the heat either. So we decided that it would be a good day to visit a cave! It's 50 degrees year round :) We drove over an hour to go to "Cave of the Mounds". The kids were super excited!

I don't think I've ever been in a cave before. It was really interesting. However, at one point it got very narrow and closed in. I had no idea I would feel a little claustrophobic! I had to talk myself through it. Like, "It'll be fine. It's a tour. I'm sure I couldn't get stuck, or we won't have to crawl through anything. If the electricity goes out, they probably have a generator or something. I'll be fine." I was reminded of Dori from Nemo, "Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming." I kept moving forward, knowing everything would be okay...even if I didn't feel okay! I would make it through.

My husband had recorded this exact part of our little journey. Here's a short clip. You can hear me say, "Oh my." Yeah...that's when I started quoting Dori in my head :)



I couldn't help but think about places like this in my soul. These deep, dark, unknown places. Unknown to me, anyways. But my Guide knows them all too well. He knows exactly what's down there. And He's not scared. He wants me to go there with Him...to trust Him. He's so gentle and kind in His leading. He patiently and lovingly walks me through the places of my soul where He wants to make me whole. Whether it's a wound that needs healing, or a sin that must be overcome. He's there. I have to trust Him. I have to be brave and follow Him. Otherwise I will get lost inside myself. He is light, and without Him I can't see.

a picture from our adventure in the cave

That same day I read a prayer that hangs on my wall. I had written it out and framed it for my husband for his birthday...back when I was 19 years old.  It comes from "My Utmost for His Highest". It says:

"O Lord, You are the God of the early mornings, the God of the late nights, the God of the mountain peaks, and the God of the sea. But, my God, my soul has horizons further away than those of early mornings, deeper darkness than the nights of earth, higher peaks than any mountain peaks, greater depths than any sea in nature. You who are the God of all these, be my God. I cannot reach to the heights or to the depths; there are motives I cannot discover, dreams I cannot realize. My God, search me."